started climbing at the age of 11 back in'64,manly rapelling and ice climbing with machine nuts and noted cables as pro.getting a bit old for this thing.sports climbing is easyer on the nerves and my pace makered heart. all you young lads will have the same problems when your old too!! i have 2 children,lafertie,22 and merisy 18. not as married as i once was,so im left to my own devises (if you know what i mean) is there a word,an expression even an emotion to express the hollow in in my loveless heart?. my perpetualy furrowed brow ,my covolsive facial spasms and a countinence that shows eternal sorrow but portrays little of what i have felt. oh, my dearest beloved,love like i had for you has never been felt in the history of all things, my body aches with every heaving breath and acrid tears fall,a never ending deluge of grief burning trenches deep into my already disfigured pallid face. i have tried to live a happy life without you,it is like living life without a heart or a soul and tears wash nothing away. eternal non-existance awaits me as it has taken you, my only eternal love.i dont regret my birth as it brought me to you,i regret not telling you of the ardent never ending love i had for you. my life ended when yours ended,it is only my body that must now leave this earth.where was i before i was born, years before i was conceived.i know not,only that there is not the potential for such a wretched existance after my departure .eternal rest at last. i'll never stare into you deep brown eyes again,run my fingures through your flowing brown hair nor feel your hand on mine,no heaven ,no hell,nothing. my love. my life,the blood that once flowed in veins, i loved you.
